Halloween I think is one of those holiday's you can be a little silly and just have some fun. Paige had Josh buy these silly glasses at walmart a couple of weeks ago, so one morning the kids and I were playing with the glasses and being silly with one another when the kids got the idea to put a pair of the glasses on Lexi Bear! I thought it was a great idea and the kids thought it was SO funny! We giggled and laughed and alexis got to enjoy that moment with us. Later on that night I was tired of studying for my math placement test that I'll be taking soon so I got on picmonkey and spookified our silly pictures we took that morning! My kids LOVE this picture! They think it's so silly and scary and fun! I think Lexi Bear turned out awesome! hehe!
Then yesterday my husband and I took the kids to pick out some pumpkins. Each kid picked out there own and they both helped me pick one out for Alexis. We agreed on getting a small pumpkin, because it resembles how little lexi was.
The kids had SO much fun painting they're pumpkins! I was going to carve them, but it's still too early to carve and of course I couldn't find my carving tools and the kids didn't want to wait. So I dug into my closet and pulled out anything crafty I had and whala, the kids LOVED the paint! They LOVED making a mess too :) And the pic in the top left corner, you can notice Landen was trying to eat the paint too. Luckly he had washed off all the paint, but it had nasty paint water on it, so I had to take his brush away shortly after that, but he was having the time of his life if you can't tell. :) I got the honor of painting lexi's pumpkin. I found a flower so I glued it on top. I asked the kids what color of eyes they thought lexi would have had, they said brown so I gave her brown eyes. Then I asked them what color of hair they think she would have had and after a few responses we settled with brown hair as well. I think she turned out pretty cute!
After the pumpkins dried we were headed to Grandma Tanners for sunday dinner. Grandmas house is very close to the cemetary, and it was a beautiful day, so we decided it was the perfect day to take our pumpkins and show them to lexi and take pictures, and of course Lexi Bear had to come with us too.
Landen had fallen asleep in the car and he's a super grouch if you wake him up, but both Josh and I wanted him to be awake and be apart of this. So at first I just put him in my lap, tried to wake him up and as expected he started to get up set and throw himself about, but then he opened his eyes and saw Lexi's temperary marker with her picture. The second he saw it, his eyes beamed up and he got a HUGE smile on his face and goes, "Look Mom it's Lexi" Then he stood up and picked up her marker and continued to have a huge smile on his face and was super happy the rest of the time we were there. As we were leaving he looked out the window and yelled, "Bye Lexi, I miss you" This little 2 1/2 year old continues to amaze me. He loves his little sister and I hope he'll carry that special bond and love for her all his life.
It seems like I've been to the cemetary alot lately, which I have. But it's a place I feel closest to her and feel undenying peace. I want our visits to her grave to be happy ones and good memories. Showing lexi our pumpkins today as a family and taking pictures, was a very special and very good day!
Happy Halloween from The Hammond Family
2 comments:
Hi Amber! My name is Alana Larson and your Mom is in my ward. She directed me towards your blog. I am expecting a baby boy with anencephaly in February. I keep reading and re-reading your posts on this blog and finding such comfort in them. I have to stop a lot to bawl a bit, though :) But really, just knowing you have been through this already is so comforting. Oh yeah--- weird connection-- I recognize your husband Josh-- I used to work with him at Pasta Factory. I don't know if he would remember me? Small world! But thank you for writing all this down and sharing your experience. I can't tell you how helpful it is! I think your baby girl is so adorable. All my fears about what my boy will look like are gone. She is perfect!!! Thank you, thank you, one million times for sharing your journey and your beautiful Lexi! I hope we can meet sometime.
What a sweet day... xo!
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